I was who I am once before

So, it's 8:00pm. I have still.. oh 10 e-mails to go through and one memo/policy to write tonight... and I'd really just like to go to sleep... but I'm "Senior Management" and the owner of my company holds me in high regard.

Wow. Somehow when I look backwards to the me I was before, I can look forward to through the eyes of the me I was before and see how I thought being "important" and working hard and being held in high regard would be empowering or make me feel good.

It doesn't.

It makes my wife upset that I'm not home spending time with her.

It makes me late on getting everything else done in my life.

It makes me lose touch with those I love.

Wait. Forget the "It" in those last few statements.

"It" should be "I". Because the only person allowing this to be done to me... is me...

*sigh* Apparently, I don't hold myself in very high regard.

That's what it's all about!

So, here's how I figure it:

The Conservatives have two big supporters-

1. Big Business
2. The Christian Right

So, Big Business has two goals:
1. Work the everyday person as much as possible for a little money as possible.
2. Produce more products that the everyday person "has" to have so everyone in the household works as much as possible to afford those products.

Where does that leave us? Well, that leaves us with less family & personal time enjoy ourselves and each other... so what happens to quality time to enjoy life and help shape the next generation?

BING! Enter the Christian Right!

"Families are falling apart in this nation! Let us save you all! We will lead you to the path of rightousness... we will raise your children and give them our values."

Of course they will... we're all too busy working to make a few more $$ to give our families and loved ones the things that we've been convinced that we need... so let's just let the church shape the next generation.

The Christian Right is so concerned about people falling away from God and families, but a lot of that is due to the fact that Americans can't suddenly live on one income anymore! But they keep supporting the same political party that big business does, so this cycle will just continue.

Hopefully, this downward spiral of doom will eventually collapse in upon itself and make way for something saner...

God, Let us pray... :)

Werd up, Hannity?

As I was flipping to get some traffic reports on the A.M. band the other day on my way home from work, I caught a few seconds of Sean Hannity going on about how these charges against Tom DeLay were ridiculous (or something of that nature).

You know what? Let the wheels of justice turn, Hannity. Everything is so Republic/Conservative dominated these days that chances are DeLay will have plenty of people working behind the scenes to help him out anyway. Just because he's a Republican doesn't mean he can't do anything wrong. The Democrats (and certainly not the ever-feared Liberals) do not have enough power to take DeLay down unless he's actually guilty! So, let the American justice system do what it will. If it's a bs charge, it'll shake out that way.

Okay, that's my real thought for the day....

Day One - why blog?

Why blog? Because I don't suppose I have anywhere left to turn. Overwrought (the state of everything that I think about), Overworked (50 hours a week not enough, sir? Sure, I can do more... and help my wife start a side-business... I'm fine) and Over it (you can figure that one out).

This, however, will not be a place to bitch. What will transpire here is a log of all the 999,999 other thoughts that go through my head in a day that never see day light because I'm too busy the other 23.75 hours a day to let them get any sunshine.